New Beginnings

Om is a sacred symbol, when chanted or hummed it emanates a frequency that changes your life force.

For the last year living in a scamdemic world, I needed something to help me find peace in my new reality.

Each morning I by rote turned on YouTube and played a Hemi-sync version of 'Om," It helps to center me and get focused so I could mentally work thru my day.

Recently my life was turned upside down and I am now in a space where my peace and respite are not what they have been for the mainstay of this last life cycle and I was forced to deal with beginning my life again.

I won’t go thru the sordid details it will help no one least of all me so let me at least chronicle what is a new journey. Fearful of the same, finding a new road because the last one took me to dark places and changed me into someone I did not know and did not like.

In being honest with myself I was a coward and could not bow out with grace. I told myself I was no quitter and when you make a commitment you stick to it no matter what. In my life as a placeholder in another’s world, it became more about winning at all costs. I did not have the heart to treat others as a means to an end. In being exactly who I am to find the beauty in everyone I had to get smacked in the face with my reality, it took my breath and my life away. I went thru the dark night of the soul holed up in my office with sleepless nights and frantic mind I tried to come to peace with what would lie ahead of me.

Afraid of a new existence yet knowing full well to do anything less would be some more of the same thing. You see leftovers don't have the same taste as a fresh meal cooked and cured with love.

Thus, a new beginning, when I first moved to the DFW area, I was starting a new journey, fresh from burying a love I spent a young woman's lifetime trying to fit in his world.

Life is funny and when you think you have figured out the path you bargained with your creators for.... you find out our infinite intelligence lifeforce will sit you on your ass and show you who you are NOT.

I said to my sister-friend some time ago the path I was on may have been to bring me to exactly who l am supposed to be at this juncture in my life. Her response was "wow," that is honest and brave. You see I have rarely been the type to let the grass grow under my feet.

I could make some things happen by simply believing I could and making a plan to achieve my goals. Somewhere in this past cycle I got lazy, complacent, and allowed the desires and goals of the team to overshadow my independent goals.

Not to say taking care of your obligations to the team is a bad thing. It is only bad when you utilize all your life force and energy for the team and use the exhaust of your leftovers for your own ambitions.

Trading companionship and the possibility of happily ever after is not a bad ambition, don’t get me wrong I had more good days than bad. I am grateful for every day as it was a reminder of the power of real love. The instance of real love rest in the beauty of allowing another spirit to manifest and be exactly who that energy is no matter what.

I am also grateful for every day as it tried my patience, hard lessons with harsh condemnation, explained as "Real love," and a constant reminder that I was no longer hungry and not a winner. On most days I found my inner strength to see thru the façade, the feigned bravado of the life force energy. I communed existing within what was supposed to be a sacred space again more good days than bad. The bad days were just that bad.

Is this important to speak on, absolutely because in honoring the beauty in self you must also address the ugly and wash it in pure loving light. In my life, I gave willingly my kindness, compassion, and love. Often although appreciated at the moment was tried, battle-tested, and taken for granted. To exist in a space for the purpose of life training I learned valuable lessons gifts of reality. I otherwise may never come to learn in the time of my life in this last cycle, my creator divine and wise allow me training for the sole purpose of showing and receiving tough love.

Like yoga, you can’t fault the teacher for the tough lessons, life is not easy, and if it is things that will save your life rarely come with these hard lessons. The methods were never common, not even common knowledge. The character “Mordo,” in the Dr. Strange movie admonishes Dr. Strange to fight like your life depends on it because someday it might. There is an old adage that goes something like this, "you can catch more flies with honey and with lemons." The best way to be great is to be grateful, really grateful.

Infinite intelligence placed on my heart to tell you that in every lesson hard or not there must be balance. To hide in the bowels of knowledge is only a temporary safe space, knowledge can only take you so far. Information without proper application is pointless, as with everything of value someone or something is coming to seek you out and extract the value in the lesson.

Again, I tell you it's a new journey, I came to DFW almost 9 years ago this coming Christmas, the funny thing about new journeys and the number 9. In some circles the number 9 is related to "love and faith," it can also represent karma and spiritual law. In other circles, it means new beginnings and completion. Whatever resonates with you is for you as for me at this space in my life it is a combination of them all, thus a new beginning.

Yoga is about unity; it is incumbent on every person who seeks this path to unite your heaven with your hell. In feeling discombobulated it is because there is an imbalance in your life, the great lesson is understanding where the imbalance is and dispersing this tangled energy so your life force flows unencumbered.

Sadhguru Author, Yogi, and lecture sum up how we must look at life in the perspective of a yogic principle. In an interview he states Intelligence in the purest form is not attached to our memories." Considering the separation of the two he communicates this as an opportunity for intelligence to exist in its metaphysical state of truth. In this sense, we can"consciously obliterate boundaries of individuality."-Sadhguru- Or simply unite our individual self and our universe to become one in Yoga this is the Unity, the Yoke, the purpose behind this ancient practice.

Stay tuned for the next journey in the life of this Mystical Traveler. Get on your mats family untangle the energy and let your life flow wonderfully and abundantly free.